There are many apuggers I feel that have given me so much over the passed year or so and I've never quite felt that I've been able to reciprocate. So tonight as I sit at my desk finishing off writing an article, I find myself sidetracked and wanting to share a little of what I do, how and why.
Why? That's a long and personal story, but I will share that I once had a beautiful baby who was very ill and I had no camera to help save my memories from fading. Today I make it my mission to keep memories alive for others.
There is no rhyme or reason and no particular pattern here as I ramble through so if you manage to make it to the end of my notes then I thank you for your interest.
My work is not always for the technically minded critiques, but for those willing to open their hearts and see a portrait (or environmental portrait) for what it is and find a little soul within.
I am not necessarily a 'natural' with children but I have a certain fascination towards the fast changing thoughts and moods of a child. As a parent I can rarely get my own children to sit still for me. As a photographer in a clients home the children are interested in my cameras and how I use them and so it's a little easier to captivate them.
When I first arrive on location of the shoot, if I can, I leave my cameras and gear in the car or at least never show them. The first sight of a photographer and their camera can be quite intimidating, especially if they are bigger than you (from a child's point of view).
I talk to the whole family from the moment I enter their world. I don't just hear but listen to what they have to say and watch their changing expressions, children and parents. It's important to get to understand their family unit and I generally only have a couple of hours to do this in.
I'm very humbled when people open up and tell me their life stories, from sad moments to triumphent successes. All the while I watch their expressions, they are the key to finding their true soul.
Just a couple of examples...
What funny things does sister do that makes brother laugh = a giggle
What does she do that makes him cry or angry = serious response
What foods do and don't they like = wide eyed or disgusted
What things do they think are great fun although Mum/Dad get cross = cheeky
It's all about communication, I direct the conversation towards the kind of response I'm looking for and then I observe.
99% of the time I photograph hand held. With children I don't have the time to adjust tripods. Their attention span doesn't give me any luxury to take my time but it does allows me see what is often missed in their unique personalities.
I love working with my medium format cameras and waistlever finders as I can still look at my little clients and not appear to be concentrating on working the camera. I only have the one lens. If I have to start changing lenses and I take my eyes off the children, the perfect moment could be lost.
I really enjoy photographing with my 35mm which has become second nature to me. It's fast, I can run and jump with it but primarily I use it due to it's composition. Love it. And I don't have to change film as often. For my 35mm I only have a couple of (fast) lenses and rarely change them too. I scout the location see which lens works best, choose it and work it.
Another thing I'm always conscious of is the level/height I'm photographing from. From up high the child looks more vulnerable and from down low makes the child more dominent. From the height as their eyes we can relate better, the child relaxes more and it allows me to show my viewers who the children really are.
Lighting... I don't own a flash or any artificial lighting units. Natural lighting is something that's a whole other area and I could write about forever. I see light, corners, windows, walls, a hollow tree, etc... and my heart skips a beat. Oh well, I'm passionate, what can I say.
So, I better get back to my article. If one person learns something little from this, then today's been a good day.
Kindest regards,
Nicole Boenig McGrade
www.nicoleboenigmcgrade.com