You must develop it yourself. This is the only way to be happy with B&W films and with silver gelatin prints. I know in the beginning it is hard and it looks difficult - but the joy it will give you once when you learn and do it yourself - it is priceless .
yes still exploring, been 2 months and 2 rolls old. still not familiar with all the stuff to get and get started. what is the bare minimum required to get started ?