I think you should go back to your question and start afresh. Second sentence – replace “up” with “down” and rethink the problem.
Joking aside two things have rekindled my photographic interest in the last year. The first was ditching digital printing, and opening my darkroom (does that count as two?) The second was changing from a 35mm EOS system to a manual TLR – a Mamiya 330s. I’m starting to create again: instead of just snap. Maybe you have started on the same journey?