I think that what Benjiboy said is not trivial: that it becomes part of one's DNA. I cannot imagine not using film and paper. There is probably no reason for feeling this way but here is a sign of my madness: it matters MORE to be to be ABLE to create pictures than to ACTUALLY CREATE THEM. Why? There is a deep-seated security with knowing how and being able to do this. ACTUALLY doing this becomes subordinate. Thus, I have no 'gallery' or amazing number of finished prints, but... I KNOW HOW AND HAVE THE MATERIALS TO BE ABLE TO.
Reading that back, I am the first to admit that that seems, in more prudent objective terms, rather sick, or at least 'dangerously esoteric'. Why? Why do I feel such a sense of security with film and chemicals and cameras and lenses? I think that it is the ability to capture a slice of time and that absolutely amazes me. Recordings and old movies do the same. When I listen to classical music recordings I have to know the year it was recorded because each and every era imparts a type of 'personality' to me. A recording of the Beethoven Fifth in the early fifties is usually quite different from one done in the late 70s. I am far more interested in the past than in the future.
When I was growing up it was batteries: I would make battery operated contraptions that did little useful, but the fact that I had batteries to run the light bulbs and motors meant everything to me !!! My batteries were my hoard of gold. In my teen years it was transistor radios that gave security to me. My ability to hear 'out there' and do so without others being made aware gave me a private cache of 'wealth'. But, the strongest by far, is the analog photography.
That said, I sincerely do not feel that it is dangerously dominating my life: I buy ONLY for a price such that I could get back if I sold outright. But, beware, I can happily spend hours reading and re-reading formulae and never get tired of doing such de facto nonsense!
lighwisps: at least your 'funk' got me to open up to myself. Thanks. - David Lyga
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